Pushed

I really hate when its going good, so good its perfect, and then you have to start with your feelings and push them to me. You like me, I get it, I like you too but I don’t need a push every time we touch. I’m not dumb, I know what’s going on, you don’t need to tell your girlfriends to ask me if I like you, man that’s so high school. I thought you were cool, mature for your age, but your running around like a school girl screaming my name. What the hell is going on? We’re friends but your acting like we’re married and I just committed adultery.

This is crazy, I know what I said, you can’t trap me by my own words. But your so obsess with the conversation that your playing chess with every word you saved. Well I’m not a pawn you push around forcing me to be your king. I’m not there yet, but now I don’t think I’ll ever be. I don’t rush when it comes to love but every chance you get you push me to the edge forcing me to talk. 

There are things you just don’t talk about because the tittles are much more scarier than the actual thing itself. But your so desperate to be in a relationship that your willing to ruin a friendship just to see if there is more than friendship there. Whatever happened to not knowing, serendipity, letting things happen on their own. I really hate that you tormented me by my own words, trapped me in a corner, and then pushed me over the edge.

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The nook

I had a dream where
All the trees were dead
And all the leafs were
In frames on the wall

I had a dream where
All the photos were hanging
On trees and me and you were
Looking for the perfect scene

I had a dream where
I got lost and I couldn’t find
My way so I looked for your
Photo but it didn’t exist

I had a dream where
You couldn’t sleep and you
Tossed and turned all night
Calling out my name

I had a dream where
It rained all day and all night
But it didn’t rain under
The tree I was under

I had a dream where
You wanted to cuddle but
You were in bed with another
And you felt uncomfortable

I had a dream where
I was reading a romance
And I read “he held her all
Night as they laid in the nook”

I had a dream of the perfect
Place where we could lay and I
Made it reality but you are still a dream
and so I dream in the place where I wait,
The nook

A scary fall

I ran.
I ran passed my high school,
I ran through a college,
came out with a degree,
and kept running
to the university of dreams.

The road grew steep,
the air got tense,
and my legs got weak.
Suddenly I stumbled
to the ground
and for a split second
I was down.

My hands were scrapped,
my legs were sore,
and my heart was torn.
I saw my name
on a gravestone
with a timeline
of everything I did
before I died.

I failed at college,
I failed at love,
and I failed at life.
So much pain
I wanted to cry
but then I realized
I was back alive.

The world was watching
as I laid on the ground
bleeding in dust.
I could hear the laughs
so loud and clear
like dogs barking
in your ear.

I fell.
Physically.
Mentally.
And eventually everything
would be on the ground.
And when you look
at your wounds
they look really bad,
almost makes you think
your dead.
But its just a scary fall.
I got right back up
and kept running.